Velvet top - thrifted; striped cardigan - Gap; jeans - Uniqlo; necklace - gift
And so I have returned, with the most boring of outfits~ Recently, for some reason, I've felt very drawn to simplicity in my style, when only weeks ago it was all about layering! patterns! accessorising! I don't know, maybe it reflects my dreams of living a simple life. Even simpler than the one I live already..? No. I just feel a real need for some kind of security... A grounding in life. Something to let me know I will be okay. And remembering that sometimes I can just wear black, somehow, makes me feel a little better. Shallow?
And you gave me this necklace. (Sorry for the blurry photograph.) And now I feel so far away from you, yet I still have this link to you. Funny how the last connection we have is the physical, the leftover items. (Oh god, it's my English coursework talking -_-)
And this wasn't a relationship that ended abruptly, a clean break. Just a friendship that disintegrated over time, like all things do. Somehow that makes it harder, and I don't know how I should go on. Do we still use the things we received as gifts from people who are now only ghosts from the past? Or do we just keep them for the memories, a tribute to bygone years?
I don't know. Again, it's the need for security - I want to know that you still care, even in some small way. This, at least, reminds me that you once did.
(And I know it wasn't just you; or you at all, in fact. It was mainly just me and my fears. I'm sorry.)
And yes, I did dye my hair! This is not quite what I was expecting, but I do like it. The first picture is more true to life than the second, if you're really interested :)

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